ive told my boss before to not put me down for five days in a row because of how it affects me physically and mentally. she also knows that recently my body feels like its deteriorating and my legs are on fire even when im not working. she put me on the schedule for five days in a row anyways. on top of that, our maintenance man has been out on medical leave himself so we've had to pick up his work, we're understaffed, and school just started again so its crazy busy.
on day three out of five i started going home crying from how overstimulated every single second of those eight hours was. on day five i ran to my car to cry real quick, came back, and had to call out three hours before the end of my shift because i had a panic attack from a man being rude to me. i tried every technique i knew of to try and get it to stop, nothing worked. i couldn't stop repeating “i can't keep doing this, i can't keep working.”
i called my manager mid attack and told her i needed to leave immediately. she sounded annoyed as fuck, said she'd be taking me off the schedule for the rest of the week, and i needed to find cover before my coworker left.
thank god my coworker and her husband (who i work with sometimes on the night shift) are saints. she called night shift and asked if they could come in ahead of time and got her husband to bring some kinda calming oil and tea. if it weren't for them i probably would've gotten fired for just leaving the store unmanned.
my boss called yesterday and she said she would be going to hr and taking me off the schedule until i have a doctors visit. thankfully i already have one scheduled in a week. i have therapy tomorrow as well, but she doesn't know that and i don't want her to.
ive already applied for other jobs and am gonna call them all tomorrow. i honestly don't have high hopes though, as i think i have the highest paying entry level job in the area that isn't a burger place…