Sorry if this is out of place or has been said too much but I just need to get this off my chest.
How is this even legal? My body doesn't even fully adjust after a week, how the hell do they expect me to work 12 hours lifting 50 lbs in the heat, with 48 hours to adjust? After I just worked 36 hours over the weekend on nights?
I feel stuck because nowhere that pays better is really hiring, and I'm not even paid that well. I live in Canada so rent is astronomical and groceries are right behind in cost. I haven't missed a day in months because I feel like I can't afford it, but I'm genuinely exhausted after a long weekend of working, and now I feel just sick and out of order and have to go back already tomorrow?
I already do not care about the concept of working just because I have to. Most of the jobs I seem to be interested in are all low paying, low hours. The thought of having to pay 10's of thousands of dollars,being able to work less hours to go back to school for a chance at a better career isn't a risk I feel comfortable or can afford taking. This fucking rat race is killing me, it's destroying my joy and ripping up the core of my being. I am becoming my place of work and the thought of having to stay in this grind for the rest of my life just makes me want to throw up, quit and go find a tall tree and a rope. Like what the fuck is the point? Why are we doing this to ourselves? For a digital number that represents my value?
I'm just so goddamn tired.