I work at a job pulling network fiber cables for data centers and warehouses. These sites are usually 2000+ ft long and can be several stories tall.
I was loaned out to a job that has mandatory 12 hour shifts 7 days per week and so far as I knew I was doing a lot of work.
After we pull the cables someone has to patch them I to the network and the first guy we had doing this was SLOW. I started helping so we could catch up between times of cable pulling and was able to catch us up pretty fast.
The next day the other guy was out and I was in. I felt really good about myself because I could not only keep up with the guys pulling the cables, but I would outpase them. When I finished patching the cables in I would go and help them out a bit even so I would stay busy.
Yesterday the boss had a bad day and nothing was ready for us to move forward (today is looking similar) so we just did busy work. At 4pm they found work for us to do and at 5pm I asked if we could get our smoke break real quick since we hadn't had a real break since 12.30 when we got back from lunch.
My boss laid into me and made me feel like crap. He asked if I even wanted to be here and why I was always not helping the other guys with the pulling and yadda yadda yadda.
I backed way down and just took it, but now I am somewhat depressed. I have a light autism (very low on the spectrum, we didn't even know till my daughter got her diagnosis) so other people's reactions don't register to me very well. Now I am second guessing if I had been doing s good job at all this whole time and yeah.
Kinda pissed, but I am not going to quit because I have my family to support and I'm not likely to find another job that pays this much. I kinda just wanted to vent.