This is a rant cause i cried not so minutes ago and my heart is pounding with anxiety.
So, there's this kinda famous shop in my city that sells stationery and cute stuff that I've always wanted to work in. I live in the capital, so it's rare for a workplace to be close to you especially since I live in the corner of the city. Also, we're in a bit of trouble financially and I don't want my family to pay for university bills all the time. It really is a hard thing for a girl to find job in my country.
I sent them a resume a while ago, and they called me for a job interview (they are very strict, but they keep it cute). They said I have to come for a test for a week so they can teach me what exactly I should do.
In those seven days, I didn't pay much attention to the commute and the work environment because the cute appearance of the store, which I love, was like a cover over it. Also, the shop closes at 10pm, which is kinda horrible for a girl who doesn't always have the money to come home by taxi.
In order to return at night, I have to walk about 2 miles to the metro station, where the last train may pass at any minute (catcalling doesn't make it any easier), and after that when I get to the nearest square, I take a car again and go home.
I'm extremely introverted and in the week or two that I started working, they noted me to smile more three times. I'm doing my best, but I realized that this job is not suitable for me even though I thought I could keep up appearances. I'm also embarrassed to tell my mom that I want to quit because she knows me with this that I'm always hopeless and give up easily. I seriously don't know if I'm making a big deal out of it or if I should keep going.