I hate when people say the college struggle is normalized in America, that it's okay to be starving, that it's okay to have 6 hours to sleep, it's okay to work five straight days, it's okay to get expired and limited items from local food banks, we are not a giving or caring country, the services that exist are very limited and usually cater to families. I'm a young adult female, I went from slightly overweight to 117 lbs and dropping from:
Lack of sleep
Constant anxiety
Constant abuse from jobs
Constantly overworked and ridiculed
I'm working around food all day, I'm serving food, my store makes over $2k every hour, I just tried counting pennies, a few dimes, and a nickel I found in my car, I have $1.60 on my cash app, I'm -$10.80 on my main bank account awaiting direct deposit because of my monthly maintenance fee, and I have to wait until Monday to call and see if my account with Bank of A will be shut down before I'm paid.
At this point I want to go to sleep forever or am praying that one day when I drive to this job at 5am or leave at 5pm that something will just end my existence.
I'm so hungry, I'm so tired, I work and study full time. All of my earnings will be going to school, America is way too fucking expensive and if you don't have family, family money, privilege, you're so fucked.
I begged my adoptive mom to send me a few dollars on Venmo so I can eat because it's almost 1:30pm and I'm not off until 4pm, earliest. Radio silence.
It's the hunger and lack of sleep, lack of anyone being nice, lack of decent drivers, everyday is so stressful.
Two more weeks and I go from $0 a week from being unemployed, after making $100-$200 a week for the past few months at other jobs I tried. I tried asking for full time, no one wants to hire full-time, except my job now where I work 10 hours of free overtime because I'm salaried.
I've already reached my mental breakdown and limit. Already there.