I’m 46 years old and just resigned from a job to avoid being fired for performance concerns.
I was working an entry-level Human Resources job and I couldn’t hack it. What happened? I’ve been working for 25 years and I have a Masters degree. How did I become incapable of performing a data-entry position?
In my defense, I took a reassignment to a team that was understaffed due to two member going on leave at the same time (one was expected and the other unexpected). My “training” was basically a series of emails with attached resources and a “let me know if you have any questions,” putting the responsibility on me to reach out to team members and ask them to take time out of their extremely busy schedules to teach me things. I didn’t know what I didn’t know, and I did not receive organized or thorough instruction.
Nevertheless, this is the second job in a row I’ve had where there has been little to no training or guidance and I’ve just floundered terribly.
And beyond all that, I’ve just never been a big time hustler in the workplace. I’m a steady Eddie but I have trouble with self confidence and I’m too sensitive and I have anxiety and panic issues and I struggle to advocate for myself especially when I’m put on the spot.
Am I the only one who feels like everyone else is knocking it out of the park at their jobs while I just feel so dang mediocre?