So I work extremely hard at a Cafe, it isn’t a unionized one so yknow, shoot, but besides the point I worked extremely hard on this store cause the place is absolutely filthy, policy is cherry picked by my manager and some don’t care about the place as much as one shift leader and I do, so I always try to do my best, I was trying to get shift leader role however,
Recently my fiancé got diagnosed with cancer and I unfortunately got the news on the floor on call
That made my manager upset and so she said I can’t be emotional on the job or what not, that I can’t be overwhelmed, that I don’t know how to balance my work and life, so it’s screwed over my hours despite me wanting more and begging more but we can’t for our store due to labor hours being skewed
I’m having a very hard time understanding what I did wrong and recently a dispensary I used to work at reached out and I was far more happier when I was working there (side context: I only quit cause I was a moonlighter/working both cafe and as a bud tender at the same time but no one wanna accommodate for my schedules) but I’m willing to go back to my old bud tender job full time, cause they care far more than the job I’m currently working at
I feel like I failed my manager in a way and now she definitely hates me for apologizing and I do try to make up all the shifts I can cover and try to be as happy and jolly as I can, I try to make everyone feel welcomed and safe and as relaxed and feel respected as much as possible but it’s really taking a mental toll over me
What do I do? I feel lost and overwhelmed cause again im the caregiver of my fiancé, I feel like it’s my fault for this to happen and that if I didn’t faint on the floor from being so tired I would’ve got the supervisor role, then again it would’ve been another chase for nothing (I chased this role 6 times. I don’t know why I keep thinking my manager will give it.