I’m giving the story since I might die before I get help, I served in the military and I serve as a first responder for my state firefighter, I have one suicide attempt, ptsd and depression and anxiety I drink heavily in a empty house I rent, last night I tried to drown myself while drunk, I called my states help hotline the next morning my room completely a mess my tv destroyed, I asked for help a therapist at least none have returned my calls, I’ve tried therapy before it didn’t work so I’m trying to see a doctor to get anti depressants since their my next step none of the doctors answer can’t get appointments need referrals to see a mental health doctor, the system is failing me someone who’s done nothing but served I’m crying as I lose hope I consider going to a er to be committed but i know I won’t I’m gonna hurt myself soon if I don’t get help I tried pleading for it
Don’t serve the system your just a number when it’s men kill themselves they give us a grand funeral and tell us to ask for help well I did and I’m getting nothing we got nothing except suck it up apparently