I've been working at my current job for about 5 months now and I really want to find something else & quit. I only really got this job as I moved to a new city so needed whatever I could get.
I've decided to stick it out over the rest of this month as if I quit now I would ruin other people's Christmas plans and I don't wanna do that. But from January onwards I want to try to find something else.
I just feel stressed & anxious about it as I hate having to quit. The place I work is one of those places where everyone is very close & that has always made me uncomfortable as I'm shy. I have a close relationship with my boss & it feels like if I quit it's insulting to her.
Obviously I am going to quit if I want to, I'm not going to let these feelings make me stay somewhere I don't want to, but I still HAVE these feelings and I hate it.
It takes me a long time to feel comfortable in a new workplace. I've only now been feeling more comfortable recently and I hate that I will have to start that again. I also really hate change.
I'm also super indecisive & even though so many days I feel like I HATE my job, once I seriously start thinking about quitting I get scared and feel like maybe it's not that bad and I should just stay longer.
The main thing I'm stressed about is just having to have that conversation with my boss saying that I'm leaving, having to stay for a week's notice period & having to say goodbye to people. It feels like all eyes will be on me and I can't stand that feeling & I hate big fusses over saying bye.