The other day I had backed out of a promotion that would change my shift from 3rd to 2nd because it was starting to negatively impact my physical and emotional health, and I had also felt pressured into this promotion and I realized I didn’t have to go through all of this, but now I feel like my boss is retaliating against me, when he put me on 2nd shift he had said the scheduling was already complete and that I was an extra, but all of a sudden when I talk and say I don’t wanna do this then they needed my help and others have to stay overtime because people called in and I was supposed to come in, but I truly feel like he is saying this stuff to get me worked up and is playing into my known weakness and anxiety.
He also told me I had to call and cover all of my 2nd shift shifts, which I think is ridiculous because other people have called in for long periods of time and they were never expected to cover all of the shifts, there were countless times on third shift when the workload was all put onto me when there was a call in, and there was no attempt of finding coverage from the person who called in nor the managers. I also feel like my workload is going to be even heavier in retaliation to this decision.
I’m supposed to work in 2 1/2 hours and I’ve been miserable for the past 24 hours since this happened, it’s the first thing I think about when I wake up and it’s the last thing I think about when I go to sleep, I’ve gotten physically sick from the anxiety and my mind has been in a blur. I’m trying to decide if I should go or not, my mom says that it’s just a job and I shouldn’t be feeling this way because of a job, but would I be making the wrong decision if I didn’t go in? Let me know what y’all think, if you have any questions or need more context I will answer best I can