i quit my first “real” or “adult” job after about 15 months. i had an anxiety attack at work which made me get on SSRIs (for ptsd, mdd, an ed, some ocd symptoms) the work stress just pushed me over the edge and i didn’t have support from administrative teams for all the things they threw on me.
during my 3 month break at the time i ghosted my talk therapist lol. i had hit my lowest and was self isolating. but i still had goals i thought. i wanted to start my career in a field i really thought i was going to spend the rest of my life in. and i left that place before i hit my 3 months to be benefits eligible. the second month i was there i had a family event that triggered and spiked my anxiety. the week after a senior colleague came at me, pissed, chewed me out and since then it was a a challenge for me to get out of bed. i was spiraling bad.
within two months after leaving, i had a 4 person mental health support team; nutritionist, psychiatrist, new talk therapist, and EMDR therapist. i also have been able to spend time finding what i like, i grew up very poor and couldn’t afford to have hobbies. i feel like i’m healing. and i wish i had done it all sooner, life was never the barrier , work was. it sucked out the little bits of soul i had left over.
if you’re struggling with your health, leave. you’ll never find the right time or budget or plans for what’s next. no better time to live than the now. much love y’all