So I moved to Portland OR quite recently and I'd say a good 40% of the available jobs here are some kind of direct care or support for those with disabilities, so I ended up eventually being hired for one of the companies that does this, and god has it been a shit show. I have no clue what I was thinking having been mostly a burger flipper/shelf stocker before hand, but I was desperate to pay bills and debts so I went ahead anyway, and it's been far too much for me to handle. I am an over glorified, underpayed baby sitter and I envy anyone who can actually handle this occupation. I understand each company is different but it seems no matter how many times I have to call my house manager having a panic attack about some small occurrence, they will always praise me and say how good I'm doing, I truly believe that their bar is so low and that they are so desperate for bodies that they don't care if I'm falling apart, or that I have directly told multiple staff that my temper is not appropriate for this job. I just want out and it's all so complicated because one of my roommates is climbing the ladder at the same company but in the office, and so they feel me leaving or being a bad worker will make others at the company think negatively of them, I used to talk to this roommate daily but since I've had a couple call outs and days missed the overall vibe is very cold and stand offish. At one point me and other staff tested positive for COVID and said roommate was pissed for a bit that they had more work to do during that, they chilled out about it later but it feels like I still have some of that work pressure in my own home, which sucks to come home to after being screamed at and treated like a servant all day. God bless anyone who can do this work, but I would rather work for 15$ an hour part time at some shady gas station or dispensary than this.