work in a cafe as a server/barista.
the boss pulled me aside a few days ago to tell me that i need to be faster, but also more observant, and generally more efficient. even when it's not busy and the only task i have to do is throw away an empty carton of milk.
i'm already nearly running up and down during slams and have almost ran into other staff. yet i've been told to not run in the cafe because hot food & it's dangerous. yeah makes sense. BUT i've been told to “move faster”. so what the hell do i do now?
i don't know how much faster i can get. i'm trying my best here and i feel so frustrated. i am not perfect, i am not a machine. we're perpetually understaffed, and it's hard juggling so many roles. but i'm scared i'll be fired (i need this job).
my bosses in the past, even in offices, have always been perfectionists and it makes me super stressed, causing my illness to flare/me to have an episode. they'd constantly tell me they want things better yet faster, and when i DO deliver they never give me the raise i've been promised and instead they compliment me, but say “i'd still prefer if you're faster and better though”.
sometimes i think i cannot even work given i was nearly hospitalised for the few times work was so stressful, but there are no disability payouts in my country ️