This might be long; please bear with me.
21 year old male here. I've been unemployed for about 4 months now, and my family is already frustrated about this. We're really struggling to make ends meet, and I suffer a great deal on a daily basis.
I've been despairing over my situation for so long that I don't know what to do. I refuse to work shitty jobs, and I do accept being left homeless because of this. I've tried living outside for a few days at a time in the past, and it felt better than the mental anguish that working for someone else with a shitty wage inevitably brings. I've been learning web development since I left my job, so I do have some hope regarding getting employed (it's the only kind of job I enjoy) but it won't happen until 6-8 months later, so I somehow have to survive till I start job hunting.
I posted here because I want some advice living like a homeless person. I accept my own past mistakes which have caused the current situation and since I simply can't make myself work a shitty job, going homeless is a decision I've been contemplating for a long time. Please don't recommend to get a job at McDonald's or something; I simply won't do that. However, any advice on surviving in the streets is greatly welcomed.
I will have my laptop with me to pursue web development; however, I have no idea where I'll live or code, what I'll eat, etc. I'm extremely horrified by my futile existence and at my wits' end. I can't meet my friends or others either because I'm out of my money pretty much all the time. My savings ran out about a month ago, and I'm having insane thoughts about the reality. I feel like I'm on the verge of insanity but anyway.
I somehow have to survive without money and a roof on my head for the next months. What does one do in this situation? It feels like no rock bottom will be enough for me. I keep hitting it over and over again and can't get out of this stupid existential crisis that I've had for more than half a decade.
I might be one of the saddest POS on this sub; so please reply with kindness.