-VENT- (But also could use some advice)
I'm posting this on a throwaway account but I'm in my mid 20's and recently moved up in my job. I was a cashier and now I'm doing something remotely close to what my major was. I held my cashier job for over a year which was in food and interviewed for a new position in the same place but it's for retail. I didn't get that position but was instead hired for a new one they made “just for me” that fit into my creativity, social media, and experience. I've worked two other retail jobs before and I had told myself I would never do it again but since they created this position for me I decided to give it a try since it wouldn't be what I did at the old ones like restocking, being a cashier, etc. Right? Wrong.
I do all of those plus the title I was hired for (social media) and I thought that was weird and had brought it up to both of my bosses. And we figured some things out so I could focus on the other work and not the retail aspect. It was all good but then after a few days, it was back to the usual. I've only had this job since the end of June/beginning of July.
An important thing to know is I run my own business in my spare time and I've barely touched anything regarding new products and such. I have orders I just don't have the motivation I used to have with my business and creating new things for it. It was simpler when my old gig at the same place was part-time. But now I'm full-time time and even in the job I was hired for I can barely finish each day because I'm seen as the person to go “greet customers, check them out, etc.” even though that's definitely not my title.
I don't hold jobs for more than a year and a half as I get bored easily with them when I feel I've “conquered” what I need to. But I lasted over a year with the food job and now have moved up to the same company and I cannot stop dreading going to work each night and each morning. It's not even that bad it's just mentally draining when I've made it very obvious that I'm trying to work on stuff for the company but I can never finish it because I'm the only one who will get up and greet anyone that isn't “super high priority” to my boss and cash them out.
It's also happened more than once where I tell them my experience with retail and how we should go about things only to get brushed off and then suddenly they have the “exact same idea” a week later.
I want so badly to like this job and it'll look great on my resume but if that's all it's going to be it's a thing on my resume where I hate it and only like the benefits I have. I feel like I should just go back to part-time or find a different job.
I even got an email last week from an old place I had applied to last year reaching out to ask me to apply for a contract position they're hiring for. It would only be 6 months but it would be remote and I could work on my own time and it wouldn't be retail. There's no guarantee I'd be hired but it's my best option right now to apply to it and just apologize to the retail job saying that I'm quitting so I can grow to more of what I want to do if I end up getting an offer.
Sorry, this is so long I'm just in such a moral dilemma right now with my mental health and well… the current job market/money.
I don't pay rent as I'm lucky enough that I moved back in with my parents after graduating but I want to save money as quickly as possible so I can move out and move away to another state that has more opportunities in my industry than my current home state does. I do of course help my parents with stuff around the house and their own business too and also getting groceries etc.