I'm about to vent so if you don't like that, then skip this post…
I usually work between 5-6 days a week. We have very little staff who can work during school hours, and I'm one of them. My coworker always waits until the very last minute to ask me to cover their shift for the next day which drives me mentally insane. She will tell me she has school or something, but the schedules have been out for weeks. I usually cover cause I feel guilt tripped into doing it as there is no one else…
Today, I am in a bad mood but I don't let them know that, of course. I suffer from depression and constantly struggle with suicidal thoughts. I've already worked five days this week and really don't want to cover her shift tomorrow so I lied and said I have to babysit my nephew. She isn't happy. She is upset and now I feel incredible guilt. But I was looking forward to my day off… I've already covered and extended hours multiple times this past week. My social tank is incredibly low. I haven't slept well in weeks. I just want to sleep tomorrow.
How can I stop feeling so damn guilty? When it's her who waits until the very last minute as usual… I feel like I've burdened her and everyone else.