I have a degree in fashion merchandising. Before that I studied biochemistry for 3 years undergrad. I studied as an exchange student in Europe for a year in Ireland (fall semester) and Germany (Sommersemester). From my science background I really garnered an appetite for analysis and numbers. My goal for pursing fashion was to work as a buyer for a major retail brand. I am sort of letting go of that dream because even though I have worked in retail sales and merchandising for 6+ years, I don't like what I'm seeing in the retail space.
Since beginning my retail experience at Macy's I have felt the feeling that my employers and coworkers don't appreciate my work ethic. I simply like to be productive and efficient. I like to be taken seriously and judged on my performance, not my personality alone.
Watching other gay men in the retail space and peoples' interactions towards them, it seems there's just more emphasis on their style, personality, and ability to liven up the space. I don't mind that, it's just that I don't fit that mold. I am polite and professional and just want to do a good job. Honestly.
Because I am a numbers guy (chemistry background), I don't care if someone is considered the 'fabulous' or 'cool one' at work. If they aren't producing the numbers that I'm required to train them by, then we have to focus less on the personality and more on the job at hand.
Has anyone else experienced this? I have felt that as a gay man I'm meant to present more of a personality rather than a work ethic.
Have I just had bad employers???