I’ve been sad about this since the day I’ve started working but it’s starting to hit me even harder now to the point where I almost wish I didn’t exist. I’m not suicidal but sometimes I find myself wishing I just was never out here because it feels like in order to live a somewhat ‘decent’ life I have to spend hours of my life slaving away to pay bills, medical expenses, personal expenses, etc. it’s so frustrating, upsetting, and tiring. I’m so tired. There’s almost no way out either because the alternative is just not having money and being homeless. I just feel so hopeless and lost hoping to maybe find people who understand because when I bring this up to my friends and family it’s “just life” but why does it have to be? Why do we have to be miserable in order to keep afloat? Ugh.