I don’t want to work. I don’t want to go into an office for 9 hrs a day every single day working for someone else until I’m 70 to maybe get a chance to retire. All the while being terrified of being late, being sick, making mistakes and having the threat of being fired over my head.
I want to stay at home and work in my garden and work on my house and do work that I will actually benefit from and do work that will actually make me feel happier. I want to work on my own improvements not helping someone else get more money.
Everyday that I get up and have to do this stupid routine over and over again is just really sucking the life out of me. How do people cope with this? I’m just resentful and angry at my job, everyone I have to work with and all the people I have to interact with.
I was a SAHM until my youngest started kindergarten which was recently, before that I worked full time and was normal. With this new job, I started out part time position but now they want me to go full time at the same pay but a different position. I don’t know if I can do it or if I even want to do it but not having a job now that my kids are in school makes me look and feel guilty. I just hate this and honestly some days I hope that I have a bad accident to render me useless so that I don’t have to work.
It just sucks and I hate it.