I work as an alarm dispatcher.
Started working there three months ago.
It is a lot to take in at first if you have no similar experience.
I was asked to help train another employee the other day.
I expressed my concerns but did as I was told.
I definitely did not feel like a good fit after helping out with training, I already didnt feel ready enough.
The other employees that were hired with me haven’t even been asked or had to do other things that I had to rush and get certified for.
Anyways I’m a rambler, but today I was told that I was sitting with someone all by myself (was at least with an actual trainer for like a few hours the other day) and training someone new.
I expressed the same concerns and extra concerns now that I actually had some experience, and I was told well we have no one else. They never even showed me how to train or do the paperwork that comes with it.
Short story short I had a breakdown infront of everyone because mind you this was all while I was on the phone with a customer, they stopped me mid convo to drop this on me and even had the person sit next to me as well.
I have so much going on in my real life (that I keep to myself, from work) right now and that just combined with this really just made me break down even when I tried so hard to not break down. It’s so embarrassing and I’m trying to forget it happened. They l told me to just go home but man did they sound mad. Maybe I’m just overthinking.
Idk I’m just heartbroken because I wish things were different but don’t we all.
Edit; I’m already telling myself to man up before anyone else beats me to it in the comments