TLDR; please give me some encouragement or words of wisdom, I’m falling apart from a hostile work environment
My workplace is classically toxic. Bullying managers, demeaning speech, setting up for failure, unreasonable deadlines, on and on. My last manager outright quit just to heal from this place. I recently got suspended for some stuff my manager twisted and another manager lied about because she hates me for questioning her once.
I have a history of trauma related to abuse and my ptsd is in full swing. I really could use words of encouragement. I’m already looking for opportunities and applying everywhere and in therapy and have a psychiatrist.
I’m just so tired and sad and cry out of nowhere and my mental health is in the gutter. My physical health has deteriorated and the thought of going back to that place literally keeps me up at night and fills me with dread. I haven’t even been properly caring for my family because of the lack of time and energy I have.
I start to also get really existentially upset about this capitalist hellscape we live in where I can become destitute so easily because everything is so expensive (it has happened before, when I got fired after having a baby). Capitalism is such a violent system.
I could really use some kind words. Thank you internet strangers