Due to Tropical Storm Debby, 4/5 people on my team were deployed to different parts of the state to get footage of people working to keep the roads safe and passable. I was the only one told to stay back in the office with our supervisor and to basically sit at the computer and help “support” the staff members that are deployed.
I’ve been at this job for a year this month, but I feel like I’ve seen little growth. This job requires a lot of “get up and go” and requires us to work with different people across the state. Those four people who got deployed, including someone who just started but has the same role as me, have been given the golden opportunity to show what they are capable of. Meanwhile, I’ve been dismissed and kept out of different conversations. I’m apart of a group chat where everyone is sharing photos and engaging with supervisors, and I really feel left out.
I’m starting to get the feeling that the exclusion is the most covert way of them saying that I am not needed nor am I at all a valuable asset to the team. I’m thinking that right as my probationary period is up, they are going to let me go. This has been my first ever full time job that I got as soon as I graduated from college. It feels that no matter what I do or despite any good days I may have, I am generally not well respected and not thought of as reliable or smart enough compared to my colleagues.
I may be overreacting, but it’s been a year and I still don’t feel like I’m on solid ground. I will soon start to look for more work, but I am open to any advice in the meantime. Feel free to ask any questions as well!