I’m a student who is still only part way through their degree heading into an infamous industry, mainly for its WL balance being seen as terrible. Right now, I’m studying and being supported heavily by my parents, and because of life stuff I need a remote job, as in I am completely incapable of working anything that is not remote, no matter what. Couldn’t work at McDonald’s if I wanted to unless it was on a laptop. I’ve just got an offer for a job that is in industry, technically a paid position, part time so I can work while I’m studying, remote, would probably look amazing on my resume, and it’s pretty much the closest I’ve ever had to an in industry position. Checks almost all the boxes, and right now it’s harder than ever to get a job at entry level in this industry, plus like I said with where I am in school this could be a huge door opener.
Except, the pay. I’ve been paid double/triple working elsewhere out of industry even as a young person, and I’m mentally preparing myself for ‘the industry standard’. They seem to fit that mold. Hint, goes hand in hand with the pay.
I’ve talked a big game to friends and family up to now on the standards I aspire to be treated by professionally, and my parents don’t even ask I get a job right now considering the remote thing, school, and the job market right now. I feel like a leech, a hypocrite, and kind of an idiot. But I still want to not just work there but even try really hard while there. Not my first rodeo, but I’m not learning from my previous ones I guess.
I’ve been broken up with by an ex for spending too much time working, and I’m not dating anyone now but I’m terrified I’ll do what I’ve already done before, which is meet someone, start going out, then ‘stuff happens’ at work, like it always does at any job ever, and I fail to spend enough time with them again. But, I still wanna work here anyway. Feel like something’s wrong with me.