What the title says. Yesterday i walked out of a decent paying job (Order Filler) and I'm a bit ashamed in doing so. Apart from the decent pay, i was just tired of having to do warehouse work, more so that i've been working in warehouses for 2 and a half years now. It's gotten to the point where i just decided to not do this anymore, and i feel ashamed, guilty even.
The fact that this was the 3rd job i worked this year, i had only lasted a month at Amazon and 2 weeks in FedEx (do NOT work there, miserable place to work), i'm getting tired and even overwhelmed the fact that i can't find a sustaining and well-paying job. Granted, it's not like i want to earn 50 dollars an hour just moving boxes (imagine though, that would be great), but the fact that i've quit my longest job this year (UPS, been working there part time for 2 years until they cut my pay), it's been rather hard for me to keep a job that doesn't make me depressed or tired after a long day, and it eats me alive that this is what i'm going to do for the rest of my life.
Forgot to mention this too, but i'm 21 and I've had no interest in going to college, if anything, just a job since it's the only thing I can really do at this day and age. I hate being inside my house but i also hate working past my limits. You can't really win if you were to choose either option. I'm in the library typing this out because my parents think that I'm working, which I'm not. What do i even do? What can i do? Find another warehouse job just so i can quit a couple weeks/months later? At this point i'm willing to sell my car and work locally because i have nothing to my name apart from my car, which is worth 3k at most and an ancient gaming laptop. I'm also 1k in debt since i was unemployed back in March and i was late in paying rent at my parent's place until I landed a job at Amazon to pay back that debt. I'm so lost, tired and i feel like giving up. I don't even what to do anymore and I feel bad for letting myself do this to me. Anyone relate?