I know a lot of people experience this, but I just started working full time in august and some days it has a bad effect on my mental health. It feels like my manager is always disappointed in me, and I’m doing something wrong.
For example, this morning I got told off by the other assistant for showing up 20 minutes early. I’m scared because I know she will tell my manager of this, and I may get called into her office to get told off once more this week. There seems to be no room for error in this job.
For a normal person these little problems and being told off would be something to brush off the shoulder, but for me it lingers with me all day and does negative things to my mood. I wonder if it shows up in my face when I’m upset. I don’t talk much at work unless it’s with clients so I’m not sure if it would be noticed.
I’m having nightmares pretty consistently because of work and am usually pretty anxious all week, even sometimes during the weekend. Does anyone have advice so that I can think more logically? I’m medicated and I’m going to therapy which should help, but my anxiety has just been really bad. I feel like a walking disappointment at work, basically.