Hey, first time poster here. Iguess I just need somebody to rant to. Sorry for formatting, typing on my mobile phone
So, at 25 years old I have been working for goverment as IT helpdesk for some 2.5 years now. I liked the job, loved the managers and colegues were decent enough for me not to want to murder them. However, pay was shit. It was like 30-40% of what I'd get as a starting pay in any private company because they never actually gave me IT contract. I was mostly being contracted as a security, mailman or some shit like that because “we dont have fundings to pay actual IT personnel”. Good enough I thought, I was there to learn the job mostly as I had no previous experience in IT, and they promised they'd change that on next fiscal year. Then the next. Then the next. Never happened. Also, they never gave us a payrise, even though most private companies increased sallaries by 60-80% in past 3 years due to rampant inflation where I live (former communist country, we're turning capitalist now and man, does it suck)
So, because of pay, I decided to resign and gave a shot to a sales job that was offering twice as much money. I got it easily due to my experience in sales as well as sound knowlegde of english (at least the spoken english). I specifically asked, at the interview, if it's gonna be cold calling for some scam company, as I worked those before, and I was said no. They said it's gonna be inbound sales. Good enough I thought, at least for me to pick myself out of dirt financially, until I can find another IT job.
So, week later and I start new job, and guess what? It's cold calling for some scam company. Hell, probably some of you even got a call from them. So I confront a manager about it, and they fire me a week later. Tbh, I didn't even try at my work, because that was not a job I signed up for. I was basically quearter assing my way through the day
Now I gave up decent job where only downside was a pay to get a job with ok pay that they fire me from for being not compliant. I feel fucking useless now. It's wednesday morning, and I am sitting on a park bench feeling guilty for not working right now. Still gotta go to my IT job pick up some paperwork, and I dont wanna show up there ever again out of shame. Sure as hell not gonna tell my former collegues what happened.
It's just a bit overwhelming. I've been through so much shit in life, this is objectivly nothing in comparison, but I just feel useless. Makes me wanna go back to drinking n shit