Hey everyone… I've worked with a company for nearly 5 years.
I have one month left until I go on maternity leave. My company's policy is decent, but unfortunately I'm in sales, and they pay based on the average of my last 12 months of attainment. In theory, this is fine, but I received less leads compared to my other colleagues, which has affected my payout.
Because I had questions regarding the policy and discrepancy in pay, HR originally asked me for feedback and any suggested improvements on the current maternity leave policy, which I gave to them. I also had another colleague review it just to make sure my points were valid. No surprise, hr and sales leadership didn't make any changes. From there… I asked them to consider making it right pay-wise because I was not given the same opportunity as my peers. I shared screenshots, data points, reports, and other items that I had shared throughout the last months.
This has taken months and multiple conversations. Anyways.. because there have been no changes made regarding my suggestions and my reports have made no difference in the decisions to make things right…. I'm feeling like i want to spend the last month of my pregnancy in peace.
In retrospect, I wish that I would have just tried to work this out with sales management only, but my manager is the one who brought in HR.
I'm also feeling guilty about advocating for myself. On one hand.. i feel guilty because i feel like i threw my director and manager under the bus they were trying to be more honest with me. On the other hand, i dont feel guilty because management refused to rebalance the amount of opportunities i was receiving despite the data and reports that i shared with them for six months. I feel very conflicted and like I've made enemies, unfortunately.
Any advice?
If in my shoes:
-would you want to end this conversation with HR? I just feel like I want to give up bc nothing is changing.
-if yes, how would you do it in a way that doesnt put you at risk of retaliation from your management team/hr?
-or should I just leave the case open, but try not to rock the boat until I get to maternity leave bc they likely won't retaliate against me while I have the case open?