i don’t want to go back at all.
for context, i got this new retail job. it’s alright, it’s easy, & my coworkers are nice for the most part, but i’m slaving away 5 days a week only to get 2 days off, and i feel so depressed about it.
i’ve called off sick the past two days. i have to go back monday but i’m just dreading it. but i feel stupid, because the job is relatively easy, and i feel like i’m a disappointment. but i feel like i wont amount to anything else in life and the thought of working this for the rest of my life is really depressing.
i know so many people are like ohhh get a job you love and you wont feel like you’re working! i did. i had a job i loved. but they’re a pop up only shop and they’ve left me twice and its so soul crushing. it never felt like this when i worked there. i was always so excited to go to work.
i don’t even know if any of this makes sense. i just had to let my thoughts out i guess about how much i hate adulthood. it fucking sucks.