How on earth do I pick a career and direction in life when I feel so down and demotivated and in pain all the time?
I have physics and psychology degrees, remember no physics, have adhd and bipolar 1, want to get involved in mad studies, activism, and psychedelic assisted psychotherapy or research. I want to be a writer. But at the same time I get paralyzed and do nothing. I've been bedridden for a year, not working, living with my parents, turning 25 in a week, and having moved out of the literal mountain lake oasis life of Lake Tahoe. I'm on three different meds, one of them stimulants for adhd, and I struggle with using nicotine and weed here and there. Nothing seems to be going in the direction of me being able to heal and then eventually become a healer or get involved in that process sustainably. Seeking advice.