To give you context, I live in 2nd world and I grew up with tiger parents. Primary school to high school, grades could not be lower than B or A for some subjects I was good at like Math or English. It was tiring to study for shitty classes, be the nerd and have no friends or social life. I ended up as fat gamer guy.
Then I went to uni where courses were really hard. I studied CAD, structural analysis, materials etc. I graduated as an Engineer. And after all that effortless I got a job in the field. And it was poorly paid, like minimum wage. I already felt like I got cheated on life and Uni is a waste of time.
But for my parents that wasn't enough. They told me to do Master course. I should add maybe that both of them finished only vocational schools. And me being ambitious or stupid I guess I picked Automatics and Robotics. Where I learned about literally rocket science stuff, half of people left, and on e of the topics was for example Kalmana filter, used again by Nasa to land man on the moon.
I graduated this year. I am Master now. And I got nothing out of it. I don't have experience in the field. I work in Amazon office where I get paid little above minimal wage. And for 1st world country it's not even comparable amount since I earn about $1000. An yet in my team whenever we need to automate things everyone asks me.
I got C1 Englisch, analytical skills, some programming skills and yet I still work in my country. UK is not in EU anymore, so expensive Ireland seems like only alternative. USA keeps migrants out, Australia is far AF, Canada is cold and they literally took bank accounts from truck drivers just because they protested.
High school friend who didn't study much bragged to me about his pay which was like 4x larger than mine. He got it by selling flats with developers.
Other friends who just was in IT since I knew him, earns like 4x as much as I do as well.
My cousin got married recently, he always got worse grades than me, worse in Math and English but somehow managed to score job in IT and outearns me likely as well.
Any streamers, YouTube channels, react content. Things of little effort get paid so much we don't even realize.
Any actual job worth pursuing seems to be IT only pretty much. Anything else is either extreme responsibility, high stress or long travels. And also quite possibly again, less paid than It. I have to study more to get a job in IT as well.
I am just tired. I feel cheated. I just don't feel like learning anymore and would prefer to maybe open my own business? Be my own boss? Where I get to say what is needed instead of myself jumping through the hoops all the time?
Or could get the noose. I am leaning right more and more everyday. I wouldn't care if bombs fell, world burned. I'm going schizo or something.
Tl;Dr I complain about childhood and strict school and constantly learning. Then I complain about living in 2nd world country and earning pennies. After doing technical uni I got no job of value. I complain about friends who got it better somehow. I complain about IT being only alternative. I turn schizo.