It all just stresses me out at this point. I just wanna feel free, man. Free from worrying about bills, or my future career. I just wanna enjoy my time and do what I love. I understand that some people get to be paid to do what they love, but I seem to struggle with finding a way to do that…especially when I live in a poor-ish rural area.
I work in mental health and it’s definitely something I care about, but I wanna go to school and get a degree as I have more of an entry level job and I feel immensely under qualified (and under paid) for the work that I actually do.
I wouldn’t mind pursuing psychology and maybe either being a teacher of something (I also love music and I play instruments/sing I just struggle with finding money to get appropriate gear to even record anything.) or a guidance counselor or even a therapist. I believe I do have qualities of my personality that may fit for these sorts of jobs.
But, I want a job that makes me feel free. Financially and literally. The job I have now lacks structure and I would rather have a sort of 9-5 feel. I work 10hr shifts currently.
I wouldn’t mind a part time job because I am the kinda person that values my time and I hate feeling like I’m doing something I don’t want to do solely to do something I want to do after that. I don’t wanna feel that way.
It’s difficult I suppose. Pros and cons in everything in life. I know that sometimes you gotta do things you don’t like to figure the things you actually do, as my daily quote from Co Star says, “Somewhere a door is opening for you.” I’m choosing to believe it.