i'm 23 and started my first job little less than 2 years ago. the work is quite process based and doesn't require much creativity but this also increases the scope for human error. i have made mistakes in the past and learnt from them as i was not familiar with the environment or nature of systems, etc. i would say that i have a fairly good understanding of things and i know how to get most matters closed now.
for a few months things have been slow at my firm, i have been doing the minimum daily required work and not bothered much despite there being other little issues to focus on here and there. there is a lot of procrastination and a general attitude of “yeah, this can be dealt with later, don't think anyone is bothered about this”
the slacking off finally caught up to me when i had a catch up with my manager and these pending 'can be seen' tasks were brought to light. she was understandably not happy about this and gave me a hearing as to how my attitude towards work isn't serious and the need to be more sincere. while i could make up plenty of excuses, i do realise that yes, this situation wasn't warranted and i could have acted earlier.
the sad part is not having been scolded by management. i then started to introspect, when asked the question, how will this change, i really didn't have an answer. when it came to if i am bothered about my job security, “YES, I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE MY JOB” was not an immediate reaction but a passing thought along with, “well, that would make things slightly tough”
i am afraid that i cannot fix myself and not just here, this attitude will make me unemployable and a burden to society. how do people deal with this, am i overthinking? looking for support