I cried at work today, how unprofessional am I?
I (22F) recently joined a fast paced company as an internee year, today marks my 8 month being here after being given a permanent position.
During my tenure as an internee I was always applauded for being self-sufficient and being able to work without supervision despite it being my first experience. I got used to that, and continued the rest of my journey the same way, operating and managing without a hitch.
Today, I could not figure out a relatively easy task that I would normally understand (it was monthly process, so I've done it a few times). I tried an hour and decided that I should ask some help, as my manager was in the HQ of the same city, usually he coordinates with me regarding any tasks he assigns me and I do as told.
I explained the situation to him, and showed him my working to which he simply responded, “Oh my God.” just hearing that over the phone in that disappointing tone absolutely crushed me, as this is the person I look up to. I requested help from him as I was genuinely stuck and he responded with more continuance annoyance directed at me, the discussion was over the phone but I was close to tears as he verbally dictated to me what I was doing wrong.
Despite his instructions I was still unable to crack the problem, which further frustrated him. Maybe I was not comprehending the instructions well having an influx of emotions. As soon as we were done, I broke down. And I feel so embarrassed for my reaction.
I see myself as an independent and capable person throughout my months of being here but I can't bring myself to forget the tone of disappointment in his voice. I ended up completing it but I can't help but feel as an internee I never had the chance to make mistakes, and which is why I was so unprepared for today.
How unprofessional I was?