I'm not talking about not being useless or needed in some way. If I didn't have bills to pay, I would go do something meaningful and enjoyable that actual gave back to the world. But I don't want a job. I don't need stress in my life. I'm too introverted and depressed to really make a difference in society. hate the 40 hour work week, the part-time-time bs boss that treats you like they own your soul, freelance wedding photography gigs that are overly competitive, a whole bunch of jobs. I've worked so many different jobs and I've been almost near suicidal in each one. I've cleaned up operating rooms as a hospital janitor, dishwasher, cleaned schools, worked in retail, warehouses, etc and I just can't see myself growing old doing it anymore. I don't have the money or time to go to school either…and my parents aren't getting any younger, so somebody is going to have to help take care of them. I'm thinking about just ending it one day before I'm old. There's obviously no escape anyway and I won't live forever either. I find relief knowing I'm mortal and I won't be here for too many more decades.