I’m a young guy in my early 20s, I make almost 6 digits annually without a college diploma, or previous experience in my current role. Before this job I was getting paid $15/hr, now I make almost $40+/hr. I’m at extremely great full for the opportunity I received by getting this job but I’m miserable doing it. I feel like a robot or like I’m on auto pilot. I’m expected to come in on my off days to fulfill required job related tasks, and to further my career. I recently went on vacation and used the vacation hours that I had saved up to see family, and my boss said that I owe that time off back to the team. My boss nit picks every single aspect of our job to the point where we are walking on eggshells trying to make (boss) happy. I feel guilty saying that I don’t like this job bc I know there are people who’d kill for this opportunity and who have worked so hard just to see a fraction of my income. Because of my guilt I constantly spend my money on other people to give them happiness, I give $20 bills to literally every homeless person I can bc I feel obligated to pay someone back for my opportunity. I never had this kind of $ before and I never was taught good money habits. My lifestyle reflects my current income and if I were to leave my current job to pursue something I actually want to do I would loose everything (house, car, won’t be able to pay my bills), I have no idea where I would find a job that pays the same amount with my lack of a degree, and my prior experience. So I feel trapped and it sucks. I’m a creative person who likes to create and express myself through art and different passions (obviously won’t pay the bills) and so I feel dimmed down and I feel like I’m drowning in my own thought. I can’t stand the thought of myself doing this job for 40 more years until I retire because I feel like there’s so much more to life then just this. And before anyone says “suck it up you’re making bank for your age” I know, that’s why I feel guilty, undeserving, and ungrateful. I just don’t know what to do. Any advice is welcome. End rant.