I’ve always worked at family run small/medium sized business where I’ve
- had a huge amount of responsibilities
- been a jack of all trades
- learning the bare minimum as I go
- no growth or training opportunities
- barely scraping the surface on any discipline because I’m spread thin
- been paid little and never really felt appreciated
My current job is different though and has destroyed my mental health, and there is a trend within the company of other men who’ve struggled with worsening depression and low self esteem as a result of working here
I have no real manager, no set working hours, no targets set, no goals, no training, I’m not kept in the loop, the rest of my team left and I’m now on my own. The neglect of my department is damaging the business, is our biggest opportunity to scale and it’s insane to me that nobody seems to care. Feel like I’ve been left to rot in a corner
I wanted to make things better and I think I’ve done that but I’m running out of steam now, trying to make changes is hard when nobody is invested
I feel trapped here because similar positions aren’t available in abundance, I need to keep my salary around the same level or possibly even higher because I’m struggling financially but I can’t find hardly any positions that I feel qualified for
I don’t even know what I want to do with my life anymore
I feel like I don’t have enough experience to work at a “real” company, and I’m struggling with depression and just have no fight left
I hate this
I just want to go to work, contribute something meaningful, ideally enjoy it and go to a home that’s mine where I feel safe and secure