im not suicidal or anything like that
I'm just burnt out mentally. All day, everyday, i either work, do university work, house work and everywork in between. Bit of a backstory I'll keep it short.
My mum fell for a scam, giving away around 15-20k during covid (the money was from her and my dad's super account, super is basically australia retirement money). She realized what she did was wrong and that's that. Few weeks later she left, saying that she doesn't love my dad and left, 100% agreeing on her therapist but not her family lol.
Now the family is kinda half and half. I am on my dad's side here 100%. She wanted to do better post scam but ran away after, using said scam as a scapegoat to leave. My young brother on the other hand is on her side somehow. Saying that we're too harsh on her, she made a mistake (He was 13 at the time, now he's 15) and to this day, still on her side. My younger sister, not sure, she doesn't really say much
2 years go by and guess what, she wants to sell the house because she wants “her own place” ( it could be that or she's broke) and we have no idea what to do at this point. House hunting in Australia is basically the equivalent of trying to find a parking spot on the weekend, it sucks. With rent going higher, interest rates higher, food, petrol etc, all it sucks and it's horrible timing
And throughout these 2 years, i have through stuff lmao, kicked out of uni (when she left, it was my finals and i failed everything), i worked at places and doing house work/chores. i finally got back to uni june of this year and i was hoping life would be alright at least but no.
I'm done, i am tired of everything really. I do all the housework, cleaning, looking after siblings, working( i am currently working at aldi on probation and the hours are tough, i cannot afford to fail/quit) and university, all that just to lose the house. i just want a day where i can do 22 year old things. Not sure what they are because basically I'm a parent at this point. My brother doesn't seem to understand the gravity of this situation, my sister is stagnant on everything, from her hours getting cut at work and for some reason, doesnt want to find a new job (shes works 2 jobs while taking a break from uni) and shes refusing to get her provisional licence. it would help greatly. And my dad, the biggest victim here, and is someone i shouldn't blame ever, doesn't understand how i feel sometimes.
I'm only 22, i know im still young but im stuck. i dont have many hobbies anymore, i barely talk to my friends and i havent progressed as a person. i sometimes wonder if i don't exist, i feel like my non-existent life would be much better compared to now.