One month after I was let go from my most recent job under a PIP, I have a new job, and start next week. I have all this money from my severance, yet I don't want spend any of it.
When I was placed on the PIP from my last job, I was there for 6 months, recently came out of cancer treatment, and was finally “failed” on my 8th month. During the last few weeks, I was working “hard”, but I was emotionally drained, because I knew I was going to lose my job, again, and they were just producing random reasons as to why I was failing.
I know this is normal with any PIP, and it's just a stupid cover up to get rid of an employee. Before I was placed on my PIP, work was slow, and while we weren't losing clients, not enough work was coming in, and we were hiring more people. For a while, I thought the reason that I was let go was because of my cancer, because my manager kept badgering me about it. But I also believe, partially, they found someone who was equally qualified for my same role, but had less experience, and therefore was cheaper to pay and keep. Thus began a plan to get rid of the more “expensive” employee in the same role.
I think the reason I am making this post is because I still haven't grieved my separation from my company. There's only a finite number of companies that are out there, and I cannot keep losing my job over things I cannot control. I need to make a decent living, especially in California where it's hard to move and everything is unaffordable.
A part of me feels like I should spend my money on things that I need, but I cannot because I'm still struggling with my history of bad employers and homelessness.
TL;DR
I was fired unfairly and under suspicious circumstances, and since this isn't the first that this has happened, it's made me feel hopeless about my future, because I don't want to work in this industry if it's that unstable, and I don't know what I could do to change career paths.