I guess I'm just looking to vent a little here.
I have been working in an industry I'm passionate about but this job in sales has been toxic AF. Even on good days, this job has been utterly draining on my energy, and after almost 2 years, my health is declining in an unavoidable way.
I am terrified of leaving. I have been trying to line something up and had several job interviews, but haven't been able to lock anything in. I am considering going back to work for a while in retail or serving in a restaurant part time to try and recover for a bit, but then I won't have insurance.
Part of the only reason I stayed for this long is for the benefits and now I feel trapped. I have been taking classes on the side to hopefully get into a new industry (tech); working full time while bettering myself feels like it's literally killing me.
This place really sucks sometimes.