I work in the theater industry on the Marketing side. I had an eight week work plan and I didn't do as well as I should have- there were tons of other factors impacting this, but I don't want to make any excuses since that's what my bosses think they are and it's my job to be on their good side.
As of today, I'm accepting a two week performance improvement plan that, if I don't improve, I will be fired. I will lose financial stability and my health insurance. Most of all, I will lose the respect of my family and friends.
I know this won't be an easy two weeks. I'm coming to terms with it. But being hit with the possibility of losing my job has made me suicidal, as stupid as that sounds.
I've been told by my boss that this might now be “the right job” for me and I almost lost it. The right job? Right now, the right job for me is one with great benefits and an accepting work environment. It's a challenging role, but I wouldn't be as invested in it if it was all easy work.
I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess I'm too scared to go to anyone else. Looking for some words of wisdom or just some advice honestly. TIA.