Not an active Redditor, so if I posted this to the wrong subreddit, my bad. Title. Not an attempt at a vent post, but moreso looking for a bit of advice or assurance. Feel free to remove if I made this a bit too personal.
Tl;dr: Dropped out, no experience, no college plans, can't even imagine working more than 5 hours or working at all. Is there a way to avoid falling into any capitalist traps or scams? Any benefits I can get things out of, without a 9-5, 5 day work week? Or even not working at all?
I'm (18m) an a highschool dropout from 14 due to the pandemic and highschool being more of a struggle than I had ever thought, and I've never worked a day in my life and have Zero experience simply because I'm too young and scared. I definitely would not be able to afford, nor want to go to college. I know I am extremely young, but I feel this entire capitalistic system is just out to kill me. This subreddit feels like a safe place to expression my struggles, because most other times I try to search things on the topics I think of, I get called lazy or told “That's just how it is”. That or Google tries to push the capitalist agenda on me.
My Adhd and Autism are simply too severe for me to work, and disability these days has the smallest amount of benefits even if I did apply, it's ridiculous to even think people are able to live in this society with how corrupt the work system is. I also have unchecked Depression and Anxiety like most people, but I feel like I'd rather die than work, really. I also live in a homophobic town and am a transgender male, which makes it even harder if I really did want to find a job. I keep getting told by my therapist to look for job opportunities, but I have no confidence nor want in getting a job. I'd even rather be homeless, really. I know how terrible it is though, as I've almost been on the streets a few times myself due to my mom struggling to pay bills paycheck to paycheck, and she also has a disability.
I'm physically unable to stand for more than 10 minutes, even though I'm not bodily disabled either. My attendance issues at school were a nightmare alongside my anger issues, so I can't even think about showing up to work consistently without getting fired almost immediately. Considering 5-8 hour shifts is considered the minimum, I don't even think I'd be able to do that. 5 hours of continuous standing or working seems so abundantly ridiculous, and almost impossible. Where I live, 30 minute breaks are required every 5 hours, but to me it's insane.. Only 30 minutes?? I feel I could work 2-3 hours, but I'd really just rather not work at all. Since I was 14, all I've done is focus on my hobbies at home that aren't any way of making money.
Is there any hope for living an anti-work lifestyle with how I am now? Or am I truly just lazy, or overthinking, due to reading so many bad work experiences at such a young age? And is there any resources, or benefits I'm able to get? Anything to get me out of the standard 9-5, 5 day work week? I feel like I couldn't even work 3 days a week. Advice appreciated, any tips help.