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I just feel like Im not going to make it

For the last year my depression has really grown. Because of jobs who don’t get back to you, judge you from the minute you walk in because i have some tattoos, the bills keep piling up, & i just feel fucking miserable. Ive been actively searching for a job that doesn’t may min wage for about 4 months now. I have tons of manager + restaurant experience so i thought it would be easy + i venture into different thing like graphic design and i have companies telling me basically that i need to spend my whole life in a specific field to get a job that only pays $18 an hour. I really thought it would be so easy to get on my feet but it just feels like im working my life just to give money away. Car registration is $300, rent, bills, I literally lived the most…


For the last year my depression has really grown. Because of jobs who don’t get back to you, judge you from the minute you walk in because i have some tattoos, the bills keep piling up, & i just feel fucking miserable. Ive been actively searching for a job that doesn’t may min wage for about 4 months now. I have tons of manager + restaurant experience so i thought it would be easy + i venture into different thing like graphic design and i have companies telling me basically that i need to spend my whole life in a specific field to get a job that only pays $18 an hour.

I really thought it would be so easy to get on my feet but it just feels like im working my life just to give money away. Car registration is $300, rent, bills, I literally lived the most minimalistic lifestyle keep all my bills to a minimum, and I can still barely afford to live. i just constantly feel like i am working towards my death or choosing to be depressed because of my work environment, my whole life. It feels like it will never get a vacation. I will never get to see the world, and I will just be stuck at some dead, end job, barely paying my bills for the rest of my life.

Everything is getting more expensive and every other day I fear more and more about being homeless again.

I would love to work . I’m actually a workaholic but why am I accepting a job that pays me $16 an hour takes up 40 hours of my week just so I can be still stressed about not even covering my bills.

It just sucks that it feels like every single problem that happens to me cost money to fix.

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

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