For the last year my depression has really grown. Because of jobs who don’t get back to you, judge you from the minute you walk in because i have some tattoos, the bills keep piling up, & i just feel fucking miserable. Ive been actively searching for a job that doesn’t may min wage for about 4 months now. I have tons of manager + restaurant experience so i thought it would be easy + i venture into different thing like graphic design and i have companies telling me basically that i need to spend my whole life in a specific field to get a job that only pays $18 an hour.
I really thought it would be so easy to get on my feet but it just feels like im working my life just to give money away. Car registration is $300, rent, bills, I literally lived the most minimalistic lifestyle keep all my bills to a minimum, and I can still barely afford to live. i just constantly feel like i am working towards my death or choosing to be depressed because of my work environment, my whole life. It feels like it will never get a vacation. I will never get to see the world, and I will just be stuck at some dead, end job, barely paying my bills for the rest of my life.
Everything is getting more expensive and every other day I fear more and more about being homeless again.
I would love to work . I’m actually a workaholic but why am I accepting a job that pays me $16 an hour takes up 40 hours of my week just so I can be still stressed about not even covering my bills.
It just sucks that it feels like every single problem that happens to me cost money to fix.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.