I miss being 22 and having an entrepreneurial spirit and endless ambition. I miss feeling truly motivated by the rise and grind mindset. I miss feeling motivated at all.
Seeing capitalism as the soulless, pointless, corrupt system that it is makes it even harder to participate in for me. I resent feeling guilty for things that other people would celebrate. I miss feeling like I “earned” or “deserve” something. Sometimes I wish I could put the rose colored glasses back on and see my work as meaningful again. I miss believing that our current system would merely need to change somewhat in order for it to work for us rather than knowing the whole thing is garbage and no matter how much you reorganize the scaps of junk, trash is trash.