I was promoted 3 months ago into a leadership position and it was hard for me to do the job, I stared to have anxiety and scared to take any kind of decision. This is my fist job and I'm in my 20's with direct reports older than me, I started to miss my old position because of the workload and I stared to make a lot of mistakes.
This month a made one mistake and then another, my boss was not happy about that, specially beacuse I have a bad communication and I don't mention the mistakes unless he asks me.
So this month, my boss told me we can not offer permissions to our workers because we need to make overtime and the next day I allowed a worker be out of work because of the dumbest reason ever. I ask my boss to see if we can offer a permission and he didn't even replied.
We had to cover my worker's job that day and I know I screw up, my partner is also distant with me and my boss did not talk with me for the rest of the day, my relationship with my boss is not the best, in general even before all that.
So I am scared, I am struggling with this position, under a lot of pressure and mistakes make feel even worse, I can't quit because I really need the money and I love the company and my co workers, but I don't know how to act when I go to the office tomorrow: should I ask my boss what will be the consecuences? Should I beg to not fired me? Should I continue with my work as nothing happened? Please help me.