First:
I need money, seriously. And I'm one year unemployed. So I feel worry, guilt, shame to deny any job. Even if it makes me sick physically and mentally.
This week a company got in contact with me and offered me an interview. I did it. They wanted a test. I acceped it. And I had a burnout before starting the test. It was horrible. The job requires a task that irreversibly traumatized me and I can't do it anymore.
It's not remote when it could be (I'm a content writer). I'm not 100% sure about my English writing (it requires).
I can't take breakfast in any job, because to catch the bus and to be there at 8am, I have to wake up and leave home really early. I leave at 6:30am bus, and arrive home between 7:30 and 8 pm.
That makes me sick. No, I cannot take 10 min at work in the morning to eat something, because any company allows that where I live. So I make 2 meals: lunch and dinner.
Traffic is horrible.
Yet, it's around USD 750,00 (kinda of, converting the coin), that can be good to me money speaking.
And I don't know yet if, once passing the test, I accept working in these conditions to have some money, even getting sick, while keep looking for another job…or just keep looking for another job.
I feel terrible and scared!
