I really suck, I'm not meant for it, but I don't dare to quit…
I know I'm the problem, there is no denying it. It's a job that requires to have eyes and ears everywhere, to have a huge memory, and to be able to remember anything anytime.
I'm not like this. Anytime someone comes to ask me about Y or X, I need to check first. When I read a document about the interface between A and B, I don't see the implications with C. When someone ask me a question, I answer the question, not the idea behind it.
I'm at a lost. I've been here for a year. I don't know if I should quit and look for something else, or if I should keep going and keep trying to improve.
Due to the law, my client can't keep a single company to work for them for too long, and has to publish an offer so others can propose their services. I secretly hope my company wimp loose in two months, because my contract being the easiest to break, I know I would be the first to be let go of, and I wouldn't have to justify leaving or to worry about money…