I guess I should feel privileged to even have a job, much less one that pays decently and is almost fully remote. However, I am struggling to motivate myself to complete even the most basic responsibilities of my job these days. It was never a great fit for my skill set and interests to begin with, but overall it's pretty easy if boring work. I feel burned out but I have no right to be. I can't make myself care about the work, and part of me even hopes to get fired.
I'm behind on projects and barely keeping pace with daily tasks. I often don't even start a task until someone pings me asking what the progress is. I think I was doing some kind of version of “quiet quitting” before, but now I'm slipping into plain old underperformance. I feel really guilty about my performance, as I don't really have anything that bad to say about my company or supervisor.
It's self-destructive but I barely even care about the consequences. I'm staying with my parents for the time being and I have enough to cover my expenses for a while if I lost my job. I wouldn't be in a great position financially but I'd manage. I'm actively looking for other jobs but the market hasn't been kind so far.