A few years ago I was an all-star worker, I had the best numbers of anyone on my team, I showed up early and I trained new employees whenever asked. One day I showed up to my manager and hr director sitting in my office. Asking me if I had driven down an oil well access road on my lunch the previous day. This was true but most of my coworkers also drove down it. I sensed some trouble then I was shown photos of what looked like a semi truck that had gotten stuck in the same area. Long story short I was fired from my corporate sales job. I worked a few odd side jobs while sucking up unemployment. I've never been able to recapture how dedicated I was to that job. Even now with a respectable company that I like I find myself sitting on my hands 3/4 of the day working my 2nd job an 1/8 of the day and the other 1/8 completeing just enough work to make them think I am just slow. Starting to hate myself for it but I am pretty sure that some day I'll get back at it, just not today.