I love my work, but my job has drained me and the hybrid shift is contributing to that and my depression coming back as I have to drive 50 minutes to get to the office twice a week. That's an hour and 40 minutes of my day that I can't get back and each time I try to look for a design job similar to mine, there's next to nothing remote besides customer service and call center jobs. It's gotten to the point where I've wondered “should I just get a customer service job if it pays more?” because while I can transfer to another department that has a remote job (different from my current job but still an office job nonetheless), I have to wait until later in the year before I can actually transfer.
My boss is a micromanaging ass, the commute is starting to drain me especially with heavy traffic scaring me half to death and having road construction to deal with all the time, I feel like I'm not paid enough and I've been too scared to ask for a raise (I know I should, but I fear possible retaliation or something that's worse than just being told no). I can't take much more of this, but each time I go on LinkedIn or Indeed to look for a new job, I just get so depressed and feel so hopeless.
The entire job market feels so hopeless, job applying should NEVER have become automated and no business should EVER be allowed to post openings when they're not applying, these things make my experience so much worse.
I'm too drained to make a design portfolio even with personal projects, too drained to look for jobs half of the time, too drained to function properly in life, just so drained in general. This system, it feels like, is built to make everyone miserable.