Long story short, I was recently rehired at my place of employment after taking six months off from work after my mother suddenly passed away.
I loved working for this company, which is why I came back in the first place. However, I work on a different team this time and my experience has been a lot different. I didn’t get any re-training this time and was thrown back in head first.
The workload is astronomically higher, to the point where I don’t know how one human can complete it all. When I get overwhelmed, I tend to get emotional with tears. A lot of my team members also vocalize and outwardly show being overwhelmed, but they may show that through anger, isolation, venting, but I show it through tears.
I was having a hard day yesterday, my grandmother just passed, and I was feeling the pressure of work. I work in home health out in the field, and on my way home, I called my supervisor. She told me I could always come to her. I hesitated to call her, but I did. We made a plan to try to work on things so I could feel better and less stressed with work.
I also talked with my old supervisor who reached out to me and we made a plan to move forward.
I had another hard day today, and some coworkers saw me crying and asked me what was wrong. I expressed that I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and like I can’t catch up, but that I care a lot and want to get my work done and help as many patients as possible.
Well at the end of the day, the supervisor that I had called the day before, called me into her office and told me she had gone to HR for “help”. Due to me crying two days in a row at work where “patients could possibly see me” and my behavior, they are suspending me until Monday so they can determine what the next step is. They said they are “worried about me and everyone on the team is worried about me”, and that “the workload level will never change”.
I’m feeling blindsided and hurt, as I thought I was confiding in people I could trust and thought that we can make a plan to improve things going forward. I don’t know how to feel or what to do if I get fired.
Tl:dr; I’ve been very overwhelmed with the workload and went to my supervisor and coworkers for help. I outwardly showed my emotions and was crying. Other coworkers and even my boss complain how overwhelmed they are. My supervisor and HR decided to suspend me and will let me know in a few days how to proceed. I feel blindsided.